I AM AN OVERCOMER, SO ARE YOU!
Much time has passed since I have shared my thoughts with you. I have felt challenged by a diagnosis of Lupus. It seems that I have “had it” for about 12 years. The diagnosis explains a lot. I have been on an emotional roller coaster, some related to illness, some to medication, some of the moments from purely being angry. I have had enough of that. It does not define me. I have much to do, people to meet and places to go. God has brought powerful mentors and friends in to my life. I have a family that I treasure and would never want to hurt them. Not wanting to devastate my husband, children and dearest friends, has managed to keep me from harming myself, when there seemed to be no comfort. I am truly blessed. When I need them, they are there. Despite wisdom shared by my young pastor, my family and my friends, at times I have fallen into a dark rabbit hole, unable to see the gift that my life is. I am slowly, but surely finding the courage to show others the darkness I feel. I am realizing so many deal with it and perhaps knowing I do, may lift someone else up. Those that know me will tell you I am always seem to be smiling. It is hard work to wear that mask. I want to be a light in an otherwise dreary day. I now feel it is important to let you know, dear reader, that nothing is ever bad enough to take your life. I have become painfully aware of how many young men and women take their lives to relieve their pain or because they feel it will lessen the burdens of others. Actually, it brings devastation and pain for others. Managing depression is a multifaceted process. I am finding that through my faith, meditation, yoga, being in nature, listening to loud upbeat inspirational music, asking for what I need and sharing my thoughts has been helpful. Everyday is not bright, and even on the darkest days there are at least 3 things I can be thankful for everyday. Today, I see the list is endless…
With gratitude.
Meet Birthmom, Caroline K. Dixon, Author of Providence For A First Mom 